for 'support' well i certainly don't want anyone's dosh, however...
Longtime pondering.
(this is literally an exposition on the 'hoof'..i am rather busy chucking a load of stuff out, at last...)
Longtime. Why bother? That sounds cynical, I am not; what for? Well apart from the last 9 or so months Freedom of Speech being on the hymnsheet of many - Hartley Brewer wow... the Hitch etc... though they aren't my cup of coffee at last the great subject is indivisible from well they're fucked off too.
But even that is too complicated and overclever.
2006 maybe a 'responsibility' to get the thing out. In an easily digestible format. Nope, better thing to do - there is only ever one, being put child first and all distraction from her simpler needs is always the only one. Maybe 2010... nahhh another distraction, poor woman... he says for the first time I see her so called 'work' in a shop window. Irrelevant. 2013 and 14 distracted with the net result of truly messed up confused family lies... but how life affirming ... and then a little bit of time-to-die good stuff, and then another bit of I want to but better not (always happy!) as someone better try and register the old folks at the local 'homes' who may need reminding to put their cross in "remain" come the day, as the other side so efficiently did. My side didn't and desrved to lose. Errata her side - she whom is Europe... only extant cos dad working for the EU preconception.
Then last year what a year. Unimagined return to bliss. There is only one form - when you have to not be yourself for the sake of the nervy 10 year old sat next to you on a park bench you had only just met, but how she brought me back to my real self, by being her real self, day in and out, never mind her superb ranty old gran! and then there was another, and another, and.... bliss.
But it's time.... oh no it wasn't until playfully riffing in my sick mind to quote the superb Roches...
It's not fuckin literal its poetry... not that anyone in UK may think so any more, the 'so' in question they so want to assume one is yet another nervy undadded person who flails through life - i believe there were about 2 or 3 million the last decade...oh well one did ones best...
And then riffing, it comes back - those fundamental 'causes' ...and the story.One of many. But stories are one thing and all very well and some may get to that coração bone or even better saudade that you can see in someone's eyes even with a mask on of some heartshaped emoji which hides a mouth with nothing real ever to say..
Anyway there's me toodling along and none of you (see media pages) dreadful bimbos of the broadsheet or even wise commentariat ever got a 'point' which even i had not until literally an hour ago... on, if we wish to divert into the sideline of child law, just what a sexist pig of a gagging and generally shut the upfucking load of anti woman this whole thing was, and is.... more than ever before! (forced chidsnatching has risen the last few years). But then why my completely unpaid and completely unthanked 'work was far far far more for the other lot it had not actually dawned until 16 years on...
good job i like talking to myself.
And if you don't listen and you are female you are anti female cos its your sisterhood more than any in several ways have been picked on, never mind infantilised. Sexually or genderly whatever the approved form is, trated like Teletubbies.
Now only now today was i indeed ready. War.... can commence. Especially as i also have a translator in transit...she better had keep to her smiley suggestion...
But that's between me and just good people.
Every woman in the land should listen to this even i amazed myself but they must not as i only just signed up to Mega the other day and have absolutely no idea how it works or if even 3 can listen to it cos their ts and cs and new words and smartalec 'transfers' are so absurdly inhuman i cannot be bothered ohh at least maybe i could one day hire a hgeek and my own bit of broadband so i can stick it on youtube....oops we may have a problem with that as they dont know whom Voltaire was either...
There is always a way though and i know them all its just always a case of a few bob... and time, and an assistant who hasnt been driven mad by not enough parenting which is clearly what happened in the case of almost all tech people as their systems are so bad someone is stealing your id as we speak...
mega filestore IGRC every woman folder
igrc, only a few know about that, its ten times better than anything here and wouldn't be here except i have to have two of these bloody things cos there are a couple of others on the go.... and i am so organised it is absurd. Perfect travelling companion...Bolivia... the real Portugal.... i know so well. The one human peeps left in Europe ... oops thats getting a bit opinionated anyway probably changed...
We shall see. There's nothing better than a story that isn't actually finished yet. She was, the one who came to visit me in the little hot house. SO tragically young. Such a woman of pure unadultarated c word above...and such best ever honour, too...never mind seeing through silly 'events' to what may be hidden in the lacuna...
.... not that i can be bothered to copy and paste as is required to get the squiggles in...
THE ally....only one..human human no axes or agendas just facts.. ..... only one who did not steal of bullshit...
And she went and died just a few years on.... and i never even got to her grave..................................................yet.
